Oh, my ~ life is such a journey! I have no doubt that I have not yet gone astray.. as the powers that be have led me here to state for you a mystery of what is art to me. To the alchemist there is a substance known as V.I.T.R.I.O.L. It stands for "Visita Interiora Terra Rectificando Invenies Occultum Lapidem" or ‘Visit the interior of the Earth, by rectifying what you find there you will discover the philosophers stone.’ The quintessence of alchemy is knowing the right order of things. In order to be able to put things into their right order, we need to know all their constituent parts. In order to know what these parts are, we have to be able to break the whole down into its basic elements. Spiritually and psychologically, it is facing one's emotions and letting feelings flow, so that innocence and purity can be restored. In essence it is to look through the glass at oneself to find what is hidden and by doing so invent or restore your true self by finding your purpose here in this world.
I was a rather precocious child who lived in her own little world along with fairies and the sound of locust late in the summer that lures me even now into a feeling of predestination. I was always obsessed with finding secret talent. I began dance classes very young age finding some success in that I learned quickly. I was skilled at replicating any movement done before me. Dancing is my bliss, most certainly. However the body I was born with did not come completely equipped for the life of a ballerina. Somehow my knees calcified in a way that forbids me to straighten my legs all the way with feet in the first and fifth positions.(?) Although I was good at faking it.. I still knew I would never make it a formidable career of the art. Thus the ascent of dissolution had begun.
Onward to the horrors of adolescence.. to even mention it is sulfuric! Sulfuric acid is a powerful corrosive that eats away everything that is flesh. It reacts with every single elemental metal except for gold. We are tempered in the furnace of experience, of trial and error. I tried cheerleading for a stint, did not like the social requirements of it.. so I quit and auditioned for my first play in theater and was granted a part in it but the name of it we'll not mention as it was Shakespeare's most notorious. When it comes to theater I am a purist ~ I insist that I am an actor and not an actress as I have no limits. Like the salt of the Earth, I am an artist! My drama teacher in high school sang to me many praises of encouragement. I decided these were ingredients for me to pursue further on into college.
After studying theater in college I became bored with the restrictive structure of it and longed for something that would allow me more input into the creative process. In 1997 I ran away and joined 'The Ever-Changing Festival of Now' choosing to explore the alternative spectacle and interactive entertainment world of a genre known as none other than the circus. Developing skills in clowning, mime, stilt-walking, and fire dancing, I went on to join many other companies and troupes the past 14 years experiencing the hurt, harm, heartbreak, and sense of loss inherent with separation when still none held rainbow's pot of gold. With each new project I put my whole heart into it, committing to the success of it with every part of my being. However some conflicting idea or another about creative direction or perhaps the vision, or code of conduct consideration, or maybe someone's expectation couldn't be met, it simply would fail to ferment.. and yet spirit is the active presence in all of us that strives toward perfection.
I have begun to understand where my true will lies. It's distilled in what I call passionately mytho-poetic, as well as sensually neo-ritualistic, and revels in the depths of vulnerability while empowering the inner essence of all who witness. My sole motivation in life is to inspire the human race to see a little beyond the standard perception by fully embracing freedom, exhibiting a conscience understanding of the universal consistency of the human condition, all as expressions of peace, love, and the will to follow a dream. And so at this stage of my life I have come to recognize that I've been tempered to finally take creative lead on a project. I'm in the process of adapting a fairy tale by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe called ‘The Green Snake and the Beautiful Lily’ into a stage script that I will be producing and directing sometime over the next year or so. I believe there's a truth hidden in this story that I must see to it that it's imparted to the consciousness of mankind for the greater good of all who lives. I also began teaching just this past year and look forward to rolling away the stone or to solve et coagulate, like I said before I can only state a mystery. My life is a journey and it's not over, few more twists and turns will lead to golden.
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